Horace Napier, Jr.

I loved Jr. and I cried for hours and hours at the wake. He was my older and wiser cousin whose touch could calm me when I was at my worst. I remember this time when I couldn't sleep. So much was going on and no matter what I did, I couldn't calm my nerves to sleep. He calmed me. He put my head on his knee and I rested. When we'd gather at our grandmother's, he'd always hug me and look me in the eyes and ask if I was alright. Last year I was stressed and not sleeping again. I was throwing a holiday/birthday party for dear family and he was there for me. While my husband was out of town, he played host and helped me prepare. He was by my side, seeing I was in over my head. He led and he served when I was in no condition to do so. Yesterday I read Psalms 91 for Kimberly. My voice wavered and my hands shook. He was the first one of the grandchildren of Mama Grace born. He was the oldest. He was Auntie Sandra's son and Auntie Carlene's Special Son. He was Daerdra, Troy and Stephen's sister. Father of Arsenio and Horacia. He was Kimberly's father figure, especially after she lost her own tragically. For Marquis, he would share secrets of how to win the girl and how to one day be a man. If you dialed him on his cell, he'd answer. If you needed him, he would find a way and help you. He started a moving business and he came and helped me move a couple things over the summer. The last I saw him I hugged him and gave him love. He returned the hug and the love. He was so handsome! His spirit was so loving. I couldn't touch him at the wake. I kept saying it wasn't Jr. because that spirit wasn't laying in front of me. I just touched his casket. When his daughter Horacia five years old, would come up to him, she'd tell everyone that it was her daddy. She looked at him like a child watches a parent sleeping, not fully understanding. Every time she went up there, which was many, many times my body and soul cried. She loves her Daddy very much. She handed me tissues while I watched her father sleep. She and Amelia dabbed my tears. Today one's father is dead and the other's alive. The sweet gesture brought smiles to many faces, but such sadness in my heart. I touched the white silk of his casket pillow and I said the only thing I could say, "Jr. Go to Sleep, baby. Go to sleep. Rest. Be at Peace."
Abiding in the Shadow of the Almighty
1 He that dwelleth in the secret place of the Most High

shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty.
2 I will say of the LORD,

He is my refuge and my fortress:
my God; in him will I trust.
3 Surely he shall deliver thee from the snare of the fowler,

and from the noisome pestilence.
4 He shall cover thee with his feathers,

and under his wings shalt thou trust:
his truth shall be thy shield and buckler.
5 Thou shalt not be afraid for the terror by night;

nor for the arrow that flieth by day;
6 nor for the pestilence that walketh in darkness;

nor for the destruction that wasteth at noonday.
7 A thousand shall fall at thy side,

and ten thousand at thy right hand;
but it shall not come nigh thee.
8 Only with thine eyes shalt thou behold

and see the reward of the wicked.
9 Because thou hast made the LORD, which is my refuge,

even the Most High, thy habitation;
10 there shall no evil befall thee,

neither shall any plague come nigh thy dwelling.
11 For he shall give his angels charge over thee,

to keep thee in all thy ways.
12 They shall bear thee up in their hands,

lest thou dash thy foot against a stone.
13 Thou shalt tread upon the lion and adder:

the young lion and the dragon shalt thou trample under feet.
14 Because he hath set his love upon me, therefore will I deliver him:

I will set him on high, because he hath known my name.
15 He shall call upon me, and I will answer him:

I will be with him in trouble;
I will deliver him, and honor him.
16 With long life will I satisfy him,

and show him my salvation.

Comments

  1. Anonymous8:36 PM

    I'm so sorry and I will keep you and your family in my prayers. That's all I can say.

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  2. Anonymous1:06 PM

    I'm really sorry about your loss. Wish the best for your family. Too bad NOt everything wbout him was so wholesome about him. This man's actions ruined my marraige and family.

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