Walking My Path

No one can claim to walk my path. Every individual experiences life the way they have lived it. Yes, I'm pretty open on my blog about my life experiences. But really, no, I'm not. There are many aspects in my life I think is important to keep private. People think they know you and they just don't. No one has to the full story except one person. That person in my life is God. Everyone else takes a back seat and has a completely limited view.

One thing I can say is that I don't really talk much about the things I've had to overcome, the difficulties of my daily life. Why harp on the struggles when I can count the blessings? No one out there can solve the issues I have inside, nor would I want them to. So when people come at you like they really know you, blow it off. They don't know. They don't know how you've faced the issues in your life. They don't know those one on one conversations with God. They never will.  When it seems like I have it all together and I'm just coasting, all I feel like saying is, Bitch, please. Step out of analyzing my perspective and get back to yours. You have no idea, nor should you. Do I sound angry? I don't mean to sound angry.

I think it's just that I am proud of myself that today, I'm walking around, somewhat healthy, living another day, with healthy children, a supportive family, a few good friends, and a sense of self-worth and self-love that's been decades in the making. Spiritual work, physical work...It took work that I have to do for myself daily. For those who question the why's in my life that I haven't decided to share, step back, mind your business, you know nothing. This is why I truly believe that keeping your circles small is healthy. I know you're a good friend after about a decade, no less. I carefully welcome new people into my world. But the one thing I cannot do is change someone's idea of who I am. I am working on not letting those assumptions get a rise out of me or allow it do define me. From this post, you can see that I am WORKING on it. Your perspective of me does not define me. Thank you for your perspective, I will see if there is anything I can learn from it, but no, I will not let your perspective define the woman I am.

I am what I am. And that's all I'll say on that. 

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